this past two days minus yesterday – I watched three full seasons of three shows. Fleabag, Sisters and Chica something..
Then yesterday I took my boys to school and then went to the gym then chopped off a few inches of my hair….
Doing “nothing” letting go…allowing the universe to align with you…visa versa….
I also listened to several tarot card readings about my September and they all said…tough one….decisions…liars….etc… ALl of them…
When several tarot card readers from all over the world give out the same reading for ARIES September 1-15 you know it is not YOUR time and you sit back and just dive deep and like a SURFER…find a sturdy rock to hold on to while the waves pass above you.
And I did..I felt the energy and I bunkered down and then yesterday
I received three emails
one that I was NOT cast in CIty THeater Winter SHorts
two- that I was asked to do a reading with City THeater this MOnday
three- that I was invited to join a Shakespeare group that performs for children in schools
four- that I was invited to speak about my class at the MIami Beach Chamber wellness committee in November.
seeds get planted and sometimes we have to distract our selves with dancing so that they can grow in peace..
Goodness is not forced or demanded it is offered up
My addiction to the MALE GAZE is over…i don’t feel it and know that -that portion of my life is truly gone. I hope that these next chapters offer me something more that superficial glances…something deeper and more lasting and eternal.
The Male gaze holds no charge but for a memory of a world I am not of anymore…
I long for and have desired to be understood and heard..and that world is only built through my Gaze- my words- my value
Thank you universe for allowing this reset…for offering me the opportunity to shift …for unanchoring me from the roots of this past life- this house- these stories and to levitate above them in search of my future..
Than you for letting me kindly grow my wings these past few years so that they can take me to the places I desire.