I tried Botox a few years ago. It was great all my lines disappeared and my age went down at least five maybe even ten years. It was amazing…the first time when it went well but the constant returning to the Dr’s office became a drag.
“ THose lines must be driving you crazy” She comes toward me with a vile of relief and the movement of this repetitive action begins to scrap at my internal chord. My chord that was growing stronger..or wanted to. THe desire to know myself.
I decided to try and see what life was like without it…it sucked I grew ten years older over night and felt the power of my prowess dissolve. I say the value of the Male Gaze but it was the female smirks I was now receiving.
Lines on anyone’s forehead are starting to drive people crazy it seems and tyrgin to communicate with loved one whose expressions were limited was beginning to bother me.
I have chose to explore the road of agin as best I can without FAKE things in me. Without limiting my movement and without disgracing my experiences. I am ok- I can;t say I am fully at FLOW with it- but I believe it is an aging process more than anything.
I google reasons not to do it just to keep me centered in the journey but it is harder than I imagined frowning OLD in Miami at a day and time when youth and the young hold the power.
I suppose it is part of letting go of a power that perhaps wasn’t mine to begin with because in the end your can’t loose what was never yours.